Monday, July 2, 2012

Type Om Negative... Meditation

Where to begin?

It has been a hell of a few weeks since I returned to my job. I could go into detail... but it really isn't important. Let's just say I'm having a tough time shaking "it" off (and yes, I listen to the song "Shake It Off" a lot).

"It" has been overwhelming me... creating anxiety and other toxic physical feelings. I've been off balance... or better put, a pain in the ass for my friends and sweet husband.

I'm pissed at myself for letting worries take away from wonderful moments... especially because I believe in treating each day like a gift, not a guarantee. I am ready to shut up my fear.

One way I've been trying to combat the negative is to incorporate meditation into my daily life.

For those of you who can meditate - hats off! You are a special human being. I, on the other hand, am struggling.

Working out has always been my go-to relaxation and meditation activity. I feel in the zone, relaxed and focused when I get my sweat on. But with the leg still recovering, working out is a no-go.

So, meditating is my new thing. And like many a Type A'ish gal, I'm still working on finding my flow.

If you have meditation rituals that have clicked for you, please let me know. I'd love to hear about your experience.

1 comment:

Deanna (Silly Goose Farm) said...

Ahahaha - That's the best post title ever, me thinks!

I definitely understand where you are at, having been there many times myself. It is the ABSOLUTE WORST FEELING EVER. Hands down. I don't think any feeling is worse than that anxiety thing that is so much greater than just anxiety. Unfortunately, I can't help you with the meditation bit, as I have trouble with it to. I think letting yourself cry is a good thing. Just cry to yourself whenever you need to, as I think the anxiety comes out with the tears a little bit and helps re-focus you.

Thinking about you and hoping things get better soon.